fuck others

I will get through. I will just fuck others, just like you said. But what to do, if what happen now is not others's thingy. it is someone i care someone i love but then its turn out to be so awkward and yes i dont like it! i wanna things get better, pls? miss you buddy, its just turn to nothing suddenly. and u are not others :(

undefeated

its been a long time. yes a very long time to be here again, to write something.U know what, there's a lot of things happen, shit happen, and well i survive! but it is nature law u need to lose some to gain some. For all the loses that i had, im sorry.my bad.

i am happy for a second , then will cry for an hour. this is not fair u know! Let me be happy for a long time. Let me.

the given path

tell you what, im still hopping fr ur promise of life.the roses. u know tht im dropdead happy when u say i am in ur list to get the roses. and im the num two person. i hope im still the num two person. but imposible lah, she will be the next. kan dh ckp dlu,dont put me in your list. nk jgk kan, so tgk la ape yg jd bila awk plak yg ada dlm list sy. arghhhhhhhh nyah saja kau pekat, sperti berjelaga jika kau sendiri. hahaa ops tenyanyi la plak. dok ehh roses amberrr maner maner? haha. tekey, tktau nk hepi ko sedih!

its killing me slowly

dah dah tanak tulis psl hati lagi.tanak tulis pasal sesape pun, pls? tapi aku rindu. budush.

NOTE TO SELF

Pls stop and dont be jealous of people around u. They're beautiful. They had beautiful life. you are you,not them, Stop wasting ur tears on boys and the wasted times.Those are the past,and please please just please concentrate on your studies. Dont you dare care about what others think about you. Dont let people distracting and let you down. Stop making yourself falling for wrong person.Learn the lesson and never repeat the mistake! Stop beig so darn clumsy and stop blaming things on yourself. Dont make fool of yourself. Those people,who make u cried really bad and u're just suffering alone.Just be yourself,dont try to be the best.Even times are hard, dont show it to people.Be happy, Be nice. go to the class,get the high marks! You are you.remember pjy, i know u've been hurt sooooo many times.Its okay.Right now, someone u havent meet yet is out there wondering what it would be like to meet someone like you,and he's coming running to you as fast as he can. Be happy be happy be happy nor afzan :)

u know wht

im not looking to fall in love.Im not even necessarily looking for a boyfriend right now. All i really want is to find a nice, good guy i can text late a night,joke around with and be stupid with. Someone who likes the same music as me, someone i can easily talk to,someone i can be my total self around and not mind at all. Someone who's not perfect but understands me,you know? is tht really too much to ask fr? 


I always try to make people happy , people i care about bcz i know how it feels like to be dissapointed, to be angry, to be sad and i dont want people tht i love to feel that. Its not a nice feeling.It not nice. let me. let me. I used to. Im feeling at the lowest point rite now, but trust me i'll be fine tomorrow. as usual.

Far away

Im tired of pretending that everything's okay, the tears are starting to show, and my smile is fading away. U are my given path. to a better tomorrow. I will keep it in mind. U are not real. U're just a dream. A dream guy. I can see how lovely u treat ur love, nicee :) she's lucky for having you,for having someone who full with love, someone who i desire the most. Im sure God sent you for a reason. Anyway thnks for still care about me, im touch. And sorry for ignoring you,well dont disturb me while i ignore u. i will get distracted.Pls live ur life to the fullest, do taking care of ur heart, I missed it. I missed u. Alot.




and i still pray fr one more chance, for one more day with u. with u.